life

is great,
teaching a new life is an amazing thing.
and i truely am so happy for my friends who have the opportunity to do this.
although this world is very populated.
it just sucks.
that most of my close friends have children
and once they do, i'm pretty much cut out of their life cause i dont have any.
doesnt mean i dont want to spend time with them.
seriously only one of these friends hasnt done this to me.
it really just hurts my feelings that i can be so close with people up until the bouncing joy comes into their life.
then once it does its like oh, you dont have kids cant be your 'close friend'
just pretty much kind friends.
because i cant relate to having kids? does that honestly mean that we have nothing else to relate about to keep us friends.
i guess its a whole new life, and i can just move on and enjoy my other friends.
its just hard to be the one cut out when i feel like there is no reason for it.

i'm sure i will have a happier blog later today.
i'm just feeling very frustrated with this, like ALL THE TIME!
plus stressed about all this homework.
going to the doctor in 2 hours.
maybe we will get somewhere this time.
so i wont feel so shitty anymore.
i guess i just miss having a best friend to talk to instead of keeping everything inside.
bottled up.

not everything is what it seems.
but as well all know
"we are all mad here"